Thursday, January 31, 2013

Lucille Ball and Desi Arnaz's Divorce

The infamous divorce had left Lucille Ball vulnerable. It was, in my opinion, the most important event that explained why she became embittered thereafter. She was devastated that she had disappointed millions of I Love Lucy fans and was terrified to know if any of them blamed her. She also guarded against reporters and other media members who might want to dig out dirt about her failed marriage. Mostly, she didn't want Desi to be hurt, but as a perfectionist, she didn't want to come to terms with her failure, and she was publicly humiliated. Lucille never got over the great love story. It was hard on her because she loved acting and in order to continue doing so, she had to stay in Hollywood, where all the painful memories and vicious traps existed. She really had a love-hate relationship with Hollywood.

She assumed an aloof, cold and arrogant persona when being interviewed, and in her professional and private life, she was unforgiving, harsh, and her heart basically closed. Fans who are intimate with Lucy Ricardo will definitely be shocked: the just cannot connect that zany, lovable character with the other Lucille Ball that appeared on talk shows. That just shows you how damn talented she was as an actress because in actual fact, even though young Lucille was not either extreme, she certainly was a "hard-bitten show girl", who was warm and sweet to a specially selected few. Lucille didn't do that physical comedy act in real life (but she certainly had a great sense of humor). That was why Desi didn't want her to appear on talk shows; he knew that the audience would be shocked.

However, people should give her true character some credit. Lucille could display spontaneous humor if she wanted to! The fact that she was so humble and self-effacing and kept claiming that "I'm not funny, what I am is brave" created a self-fulfilling prophecy and she (and others) ultimately believed that she was void of humor. Watch candid videos of her, you'd be surprised that she would occasionally throw hilarious comments every now and then.

She really had no idea how much she was loved. Her fans loved her just as much, and more surprisingly, you'd realize from viewing YouTube videos of interviews with the post-divorce Miss Ball that everyone regarded her with such high esteem that even the most vicious talk show host would be careful in skirting this topic.

She must have intimidated her family and friends a lot, because no one managed to open up her heart again. I'd like to think that she finally did, 2 days before Desi's death, because she told him "I love you. I love you, Desi. I love you," over and over again as she wept. It was the saddest but most beautiful moment, sad that the two people who were meant to love each other were about to be separated by life and death, beautiful that she finally made the leap to express her love openly. Lucille really had an astounding capability to love, and this is evident if you would study pictures and videos of her, and come on, she endured a marriage full of alcohol and whores because she loved Desi so much, didn't she, but this capability for love was buried deep in her.

I really love her.

7 comments:

  1. Hi, you´re right about Lucy, she loved Desi so much and I think, in his imperfect way he ? her too...

    This picture is heartbroken. Can you tell me where is from?

    thank you!!!

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    1. This picture is taken when Desi and Lucille reunited at Desilu, when she starred as Lucy Carmichael in The Lucy Show. Desi was the producer for a few episodes, and he couldn't take it, so he quit after that.

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    2. Awww!!! So sad that they coudn´t be together.I love them so much!!!. Thank you for answer me your blog is amazing!!!

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  2. Ugh this breaks my heart so much. I know what it is like to become bitter and closed off due to a man mistreating you. I can relate so much to that and it just breaks my heart so much that she had to go through that. It sucks when you love someone with all you have and they continue to treat you wrong. I cry for Lucy when I think about it which is crazy to me because I don't really get wrapped up with celebrities, but something about this woman. I just love her. She has helped me through so much in my life. Thank you Lucy. I hope I can thank you one day <3

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    1. and can I add we both fell for those Latin Lovers. Lol.

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  3. I always wondered when those pics were taken! Thanks for explaining. Wow...so tragically beautiful.

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  4. I have always been so fascinated with these photographs. I love them so very much. It is really sad to think about how their marriage ended because they loved each other so much. Your post is very insightful on what many Lucille Ball & Desi Arnaz fans have a hard time wrapping their heads around. Very nice blog. Thank you for sharing!

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